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Tuesday, March 17, 2009 @ 6:03 PM

Yeye, its your 1st Death Anniversary today.
1 year passes so fast...
If only you listened to me, Zonghan and Yujia when we advised you to quit smoking, maybe you're still alive today and sitting beside me watching me type this post. D:
Everytime you tell us must be guai guai, but we tell you don't smoke, you don't listen to us, you not guai. D:
I still remember that day, it was Term 2 Week 1 Monday March 17.
I was in school designing something with my group for the Environment Week.
I was playing happily while you passed away.
If only I didn't go to school and stayed home with my aunty and Zonghan with you for your last hours and held onto your hand when you passed away. D:
If only I could predict the future and make sure you quit smoking.
If only, If only, If only...
On that day after school, Yujia came and tell that you passed away.
I was like, Aiya, this kind of thing cannot say joke joke one leh.
Then saw the seriousness on her face and the tears that are rolling down her face, I went, Uh-oh. And Priya went, Huh?! Really ah?
Then Yujia's friend started comforting her, I held back my tears and only started crying when I got onto the car. D:
Then after my you were brought back from embalming and make-up, I didn't want to see you.
I'm scared that after I look at you, I will start crying again.
But in the end, had to pay my respects to you, so I went in to see, and I came out crying terribly.
Yeye, you look so handsome in your suit and with the make-up on. And only at that day, I realised how much you had slimed down compared before you got your disease.
You were smiling in your coffin, although we were sad that you left us, we were happy for you for that your pain was gone and you were able to smile. :)
I saw how ah ma cried for you when you left on the 5th day.
She was crying terribly when you were being cremated right infront of our eyes, I tried not to cry but I just can't hold back my tears.
She was shouting for you to come back and sometimes I wish that it was just a terrible nightmare and when I wake up, you will be in your room sleeping.
I was still crying 30minutes after you were being cremated.
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We went to collect your ashes the next day and we saw how the person broke your scalp into pieces. And used something to smash it into ashes. And you were gone...
And aunty was crying as she saw your bones being smashed up.
Hai....
Yeye, you'll be etched inside our hearts forever!
We'll miss you!
Hope you rest in peace!

Love♥, CiXuan 慈暄.

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